here's an interesting fact for anyone curious
put 3 people in a small space and after 8 hours you'll have some grumpy and sassy, borderline homicidal people on your hands.
welcome to the family!
i've decided to go on a social media (instagram and snapchat) hiatus until i leave. How will I do it, you ask? Spend endless amounts of time on tumblr until my eyes roll back in their sockets and I can no longer move my hands.
You're welcome. Enjoy this picture.

sassy swag master since day one 

For those of you reading this from below freezing temperatures, I apologize.

I am currently posting from the motorhome where it's a chilly 48 degrees outside at midnight. I cannot complain, because back home it's 27 degrees and it's been snowing today. 

I was not built for cold, which gives meaning to the feelings of happiness that I'm currently feeling.

Since I'm off of twitter, I'm attempting to get back into the blogging world. Forgive me for my many mistakes.

anyways. 

The good news: I'm out of Utah for the next 5 months.

The bad news: This is way harder than I thought.

Leaving home was quite bitter sweet. I'm happy to be going on to a bigger adventure, but leaving my friends behind has been much more challenging than I thought it was going to be. I would be lying if I told you that I didn't shed a couple tears as we got on the freeway on the way out of town. This is the end of an era for me, and it's really weird. I'll only be gone for 4 months, but that's 4 months of uncertainty. 

life begins at the end of your comfort zone

I came into this thinking that I was so ready to go and so ready to leave home. But I realized how much I'm going to miss everyone, and that's what's been so hard. 

Well, it's too late to turn back now. 

see ya never utah. 

yes my arm is 20 feet long why do you ask 

sue me for double posting, but i just couldn't resist.
everyone knows this simple equation:

camera + white girl = photographer

while avoiding homework and putting off studying for finals, i took pictures of my sweet friend breecia. she is GORGEOUS. we took a trip up to sundance and then to a cute christmas tree farm. enjoy. there are so many more, but here are a  few of my very favorites. 

i would LOVE to take anyone else's pictures before i'm outta here for good  - let me know and we'll work something out!

i would just like to inform all of you that i have 5 days until i am no longer utah's problem. 5 DAYS PEOPLE. we're going down to arizona this coming friday, which means that i'll be out of here sooner than i thought. as i've said before 1234 times, i'm leaving the 29th of this month.

to think that it's really coming down the home stretch is so incredibly weird to me. i've waited months and months for this and it's almost here. if i'm being completely honest, i'm nervous about leaving utah. i'm also a little bit sad. thinking that i'll be away from home for a long time..that's a lot to think about. i won't be able to lounge on my red couch for 9 hours straight doing nothing wrapped up in a blanket. but hey..i guess the beach will have to do for now..

i think something that's really come out of this experience is that i've kind of realized who is worth my time and who isn't. i can count on one hand the number of people who have tried to get in contact with me before i leave. i don't mean to sound like a whiny girl. but it's a little frustrating. BUT whatever - life goes on and there are bigger things for me to be worrying about, like my math final that's on monday. whatever right?

BEFORE I FORGET.

on wednesday i got a perm. an actual perm. i thought that since i'm already lazy and it's so humid in hawaii, not doing my hair would be super awesome. yeah, i thought that until i turned into a feral homeless child who hasn't brushed her hair in months. i look like a ski bum. 

1 month. 8 days. 

Hawaii. Can you believe it? It's only 1 month and 8 days away. It literally feels like an eternity, but at the same time it's right around the corner. there's only 3 and a half weeks left of this semester, and that includes thanksgiving break. that means that I have 15 days left of school. That means that I have 15 days to not smash my head into my desk.  is that even possible? as miserable as it's been, it's gone by pretty fast. With that being said, I CANNOT WAIT FOR THIS SEMESTER TO END. Not only will I never have to take these classes ever again, but I get to disappear into the sandy beaches of Oahu. I'll think of you all with your winter coats while I'm wearing shorts in the sunshine :)

the birth giver and I went to the Holy Cow Boutique, a Utah tradition. This is basically nirvana for each and every woman in the Utah Valley. It's overwhelming, but in a weirdly satisfying way. ANYWAYS. I found some cute sayings for my dorm, which means that the preparations for the move are underway. How I am going to get this stuff over there, I have no idea. But, it will get over there nonetheless. I have all of my shorts (all 6 pairs of them, none of which are byu dress code appropriate) piled in my suitcase, and the search for decent clothes is never ending. Who would think that buying shorts in the winter would be so hard? Finding clothes that won't get me in trouble is literally impossible, because all of the shorts and dresses that I find are only an inch above my kneecap, which I hear is a no no. If I can make it through this semester without getting busted, it will be a true miracle.

Meanwhile, I've been avoiding school work by writing extra long missionary emails and putting together packages for my favorite people. If you asked me if I've spent over 150 dollars on candy,shipping, and ties this month, I would lie and tell you no. 

#droppingoutofcollege

I've come to an important decision today.
I'm dropping out of school, gaining 256.9 pounds, and living with my parents for the rest of my days. 

As much as I wish that would happen, obviously it can't. Just like every other college student, I'm overwhelmed, stressed, and pushed to my very limits. I'm avoiding my 10 page research paper like the plague, meaning that I just spent 20 minutes writing a missionary email, and now I'll spend 20 more minutes writing this post. Running from your problems is the fastest way to solve them, right?
4 more week. I can get through this. After all, next week is Thanksgiving, which means family and a heap of unhealthy food. WHAT MORE CAN YOU ASK FOR, M I RITE?
Why can't papers write themselves and grades stay at 100 and why can't I just fast forward 2 years to when all of my friends get home? lol wishful thinking. 

me eating my feelings (vanilla ice cream with nesquick)

life lately.

the first snow of the year has fallen, and i already loathe it. but when i think of where i'll be in a month and a half, it makes it just a little bit easier to bear. time is moving so fast - where has it gone?! all of my friends are leaving on their missions, meaning that i have probably 3 friends left. i'm not even being dramatic. i haven't been to my home ward in about 2 months, all because of missionary farewells. i'm not being dramatic about that either. i'm so proud of all these incredible young men and their decision to serve the lord - i'll miss them, but they'll be back before i even know it. just don't count on me getting married any time in the next 2 years. 

the egg - not so good in the snow

austin, mexico 

mike, honolulu

family bike rides down the canyon no buggy

tibble fork

american fork canyon

treston, washington dc

wyatt's mission call opening - taiwan

austin, guatemala 

if you ain't wheelie-in, you ain't ridin. 

merica, ya?

it seems as if my mouth has been replaced by hands

finally a normal picture of me